Life is built upon firsts. It is the firsts that begin new habits, interests, and memories that futures plans are built upon. We all remember our first day of school and how great it was. This is what powered me through high school and college earning a B.S. in Biology and Environmental Science in addition to a minor in Chemistry. The memories of enjoyable school days with friends, staying up late studying in the library, and learning copious amounts of world knowledge were inspiring. This peaked my interests to learn more about the world around me and the destruction we, as 7 billion people, have caused and what my peers and I could do to change it. I assumed the role of the "evironmentally conscience" friend who recycled, walked when I could, bought organic products, and occassionally went a day or two without shoes.
Since graduating this past May I have found myself writing out goals, to-do-lists, bucket lists, and then rewriting those lists in hopes that they would cross themselves off. I have found myself between a rock and a hard place. I hold an ambitious and relevant degree for current demand but am lacking motivation.
This is the first time in my life where a life without a class schedule, sports schedule, and the safety of being a child are gone. This is the first time in my life where it is left solely up to me to begin making critical decisions and acting on them. I have quickly realized that a life of luxary, fun-in-the-sun, no worries, and money trees need to placed in the dream category. As the saying goes, "step one is admitting the problem" so now that leaves me to act on moving on from what once was everyday comforts.
